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| Kad sam doručkovao, bilo je tek negde oko podne, a sa Sali je trebalo da se nađem čak u dva, pa sam krenuo u dugačku šetnju. Nikako nisam prestajao da mislim na one časne sestre. | AFTER I HAD my breakfast, it was only around noon, and I wasn't meeting old Sally till two o'clock, so I started taking this long walk. I couldn't stop thinking about those two nuns. |
| Stalno sam mislio na tu staru korpu od pruća s kojom su išle naokolo i skupljale priloge kad nisu predavale u školi. Pokušavao sam da zamislim moju majku ili nekoga, na primer tetku, ili onu suludu majku Sali Hejs, kako stoji pred robnom kućom i skuplja priloge za sirotinju u neku staru korpu. | I kept thinking about that beat-up old straw basket they went around collecting money with when they weren't teaching school. I kept trying to picture my mother or somebody, or my aunt, or Sally Hayes's crazy mother, standing outside some department store and collecting dough for poor people in a beat-up old straw basket. |
| Teško je to bilo zamisliti. Ne toliko moju majku koliko one druge dve. Moja tetka je poprilično sklona dobrotvornim akcijama - radi dosta toga za Crveni krst i ostalo - ali ona se vrlo elegantno oblači i, kad radi nešto u dobrotvorne svrhe, uvek je krajnje doterana i nakarminisana i sve. | It was hard to picture. Not so much my mother, but those other two. My aunt's pretty charitable―she does a lot of Red Cross work and all―but she's very well-dressed and all, and when she does anything charitable she's always very well-dressed and has lipstick on and all that crap. |
| Nisam mogao da je zamislim kako išta radi u dobrotvorne svrhe ako bi pritom morala da bude odevena u crno i bez karmina na ustima. A tek majka Sali Hejs. | I couldn't picture her doing anything for charity if she had to wear black clothes and no lipstick while she was doing it. And old Sally Hayes's mother. |
| Isuse Hriste. Ta bi išla naokolo s korpom i skupljala priloge samo pod uslovom da je svako poljubi u dupe pre nego što priloži nešto. Ako bi samo ubacivali pare u korpu i onda se udaljavali bez reči, ignorišući je i sve, odustala bi za sat vremena. Dosadilo bi joj. | Jesus Christ. The only way she could go around with a basket collecting dough would be if everybody kissed her ass for her when they made a contribution. If they just dropped their dough in her basket, then walked away without saying anything to her, ignoring her and all, she'd quit in about an hour. She'd get bored. |
| Vratila bi korpu i otišla pravo u neki izvikani lokal na ručak. To je ono što mi se dopalo kod tih časnih sestara. Videlo se, pre svega, da one nikada ne ručaju na izvikanim mestima. Baš me rastužilo kad sam pomislio da one nikada ne ručaju na izvikanim mestima ili negde. Znao sam da to nije toliko važno, ali svejedno me rastužilo. | She'd hand in her basket and then go someplace swanky for lunch. That's what I liked about those nuns. You could tell, for one thing, that they never went anywhere swanky for lunch. It made me so damn sad when I thought about it, their never going anywhere swanky for lunch or anything. I knew it wasn't too important, but it made me sad anyway. |
| Uputio sam se ka Brodveju, tek onako, jer godinama nisam bio tamo. Osim toga, hteo sam da nađem neku prodavnicu ploča koja radi nedeljom. Bila je jedna ploča koju sam hteo da kupim Febi, "Mala Širli Bins". | I started walking over toward Broadway, just for the hell of it, because I hadn't been over there in years. Besides, I wanted to find a record store that was open on Sunday. |
| Tu ploču je bilo veoma teško naći. Pesma je bila o nekoj devojčici koja neće da izađe iz kuće jer su joj ispala dva prednja zuba, pa se stidi zbog toga. Čuo sam je u Pensiju. | There was this record I wanted to get for Phoebe, called "Little Shirley Beans." It was a very hard record to get. It was about a little kid that wouldn't go out of the house because two of her front teeth were out and she was ashamed to. I heard it at Pencey. |
| Imao je jedan dečak sa gornjeg sprata, pa sam pokušao da je kupim od njega, jer sam znao da bi oborila Febu, ali nije hteo da je proda. To je vrlo stara, fenomenalna ploča koju je snimila ona crnačka pevačica, Estel Flečer, pre nekih dvadeset godina. | A boy that lived on the next floor had it, and I tried to buy it off him because I knew it would knock old Phoebe out, but he wouldn't sell it. It was a very old, terrific record that this colored girl singer, Estelle Fletcher, made about twenty years ago. |
| Peva je u diksilend stilu, vrlo kuplerajski, pa ne zvuči ni najmanje otužno ili sentimentalno. Da je pevala neka bela pevačica, to bi zvučalo stravično ljupko, ali je stara Estel Flečer odlično znala svoj posao i to je bila jedna od najboljih ploča koju sam ikad čuo. | She sings it very Dixieland and whorehouse, and it doesn't sound at all mushy. If a white girl was singing it, she'd make it sound cute as hell, but old Estelle Fletcher knew what the hell she was doing, and it was one of the best records I ever heard. |
| Mislio sam da je kupim u nekoj radnji koja radi nedeljom i ponesem je u park. Bila je nedelja, a Feba često ide nedeljom u park, da se vozi na rolšuama. Znao sam gde najčešće odlazi. | I figured I'd buy it in some store that was open on Sunday and then I'd take it up to the park with me. It was Sunday and Phoebe goes roller-skating in the park on Sundays quite frequently. I knew where she hung out mostly. |
| Nije bilo tako hladno kao prethodnog dana, ali sunce se još nije probilo pa nije bilo naročito prijatno za šetnju. Ali bilo je nešto lepo. Baš ispred mene išla je neka porodica koja kao da je tek izašla iz crkve - otac, majka i dečkić od oko šest godina. Izgledali su nekako siromašno. | It wasn't as cold as it was the day before, but the sun still wasn't out, and it wasn't too nice for walking. But there was one nice thing. This family that you could tell just came out of some church were walking right in front of me―a father, a mother, and a little kid about six years old. They looked sort of poor. |
| Otac je na glavi imao jedan od onih šešira bisernosive boje kakve često nose siromašni ljudi kad žele da deluju elegantno. On i njegova žena samo su išli napred i razgovarali, ne obraćajući pažnju na dečaka. Mali je bio prva liga. Hodao je ulicom, umesto po trotoaru, ali uz sam ivičnjak. | The father had on one of those pearl-gray hats that poor guys wear a lot when they want to look sharp. He and his wife were just walking along, talking, not paying any attention to their kid. The kid was swell. He was walking in the street, instead of on the sidewalk, but right next to the curb. |
| Pravio se kao da hoda po vrlo ravnoj liniji, kako to klinci rade, i sve vreme je samo pevušio nešto. Prišao sam mu bliže da čujem šta peva. Pevao je onu pesmu "Ulovi li neko nekog dok kroz žito ide". Imao je i lep glasić. | He was making out like he was walking a very straight line, the way kids do, and the whole time he kept singing and humming. I got up closer so I could hear what he was singing. He was singing that song, "If a body catch a body coming through the rye." He had a pretty little voice, too. |
| Pevao je tek onako, za sebe, lepo se videlo. Automobili su jurili ulicom, kočnice škripale na sve strane, roditelji nisu obraćali pažnju na njega, a on samo išao uz ivičnjak i pevao "Ulovi li neko nekog dok kroz žito ide". | He was just singing for the hell of it, you could tell. The cars zoomed by, brakes screeched all over the place, his parents paid no attention to him, and he kept on walking next to the curb and singing "If a body catch a body coming through the rye." It made me feel better. |
| To mi je popravilo raspoloženje. Nisam se više osećao tako potišten. | It made me feel not so depressed any more. |
| Brodvej je bio prljav i zakrčen svetom. Bila je nedelja i tek oko podne, ali je svejedno bila gužva. | Broadway was mobbed and messy. It was Sunday, and only about twelve o'clock, but it was mobbed anyway. |
| Svi su žurili u bioskope - u Paramunt ili Astor ili Strend ili Kapitol ili neko drugo suludo mesto. Svi su bili lepo doterani, jer je bila nedelja, i zato je sve to bilo još gore. | Everybody was on their way to the movies―the Paramount or the Astor or the Strand or the Capitol or one of those crazy places. Everybody was all dressed up, because it was Sunday, and that made it worse. |
| Ali najgore od svega je što se lepo videlo da svi oni žele da idu u bioskop. Nisam bio u stanju da ih gledam. | But the worst part was that you could tell they all wanted to go to the movies. I couldn't stand looking at them. |
| Mogu da shvatim kad neko ide u bioskop zato što nema šta drugo da radi, ali kad neko zaista želi da ide i čak žuri da tamo što pre stigne, onda me to užasno deprimira. | I can understand somebody going to the movies because there's nothing else to do, but when somebody really wants to go, and even walks fast so as to get there quicker, then it depresses hell out of me. |
| Pogotovo ako vidim milione ljudi kako stoje u jednom od onih dugih, stravičnih redova duž čitavog bloka, čekajući s tim neviđenim strpljenjem na karte i sve. Ljudi moji, jedva sam čekao da se sklonim s prokletog Brodveja. | Especially if I see millions of people standing in one of those long, terrible lines, all the way down the block, waiting with this terrific patience for seats and all. Boy, I couldn't get off that goddam Broadway fast enough. |
| Imao sam sreće. U prvoj prodavnici ploča u koju sam ušao imali su "Malu Širli Bins". Naplatili su mi pet dolara za nju, jer je tako retka, ali nije mi bilo važno. | I was lucky. The first record store I went into had a copy of "Little Shirley Beans." They charged me five bucks for it, because it was so hard to get, but I didn't care. |
| Ljudi moji, to me odjednom tako usrećilo. Jedva sam čekao da stignem u park i potražim Febu da bih joj dao ploču ako je tamo. | Boy, it made me so happy all of a sudden. I could hardly wait to get to the park to see if old Phoebe was around so that I could give it to her. |
| Kad sam izašao iz prodavnice ploča, prolazio sam pored nekog dragstora i pomislio da možda okrenem Džejn i vidim da li je stigla kući za raspust. I tako sam ušao u govornicu i pozvao je. | When I came out of the record store, I passed this drugstore, and I went in. I figured maybe I'd give old Jane a buzz and see if she was home for vacation yet. So I went in a phone booth and called her up. |
| Jedini je problem bio što se javila njena majka pa sam morao da prekinem. Nisam bio raspoložen da se upuštam u neki razgovor sa njom. | The only trouble was, her mother answered the phone, so I had to hang up. I didn't feel like getting involved in a long conversation and all with her. |
| Ionako ne ludujem da pričam s majkama devojaka preko telefona. Ipak, trebalo je bar da je pitam da li je Džejn stigla kući. Ne bih umro. Ali nisam imao volje za to. Čovek stvarno treba da bude posebno raspoložen za takve stvari. | I'm not crazy about talking to girls' mothers on the phone anyway. I should've at least asked her if Jane was home yet, though. It wouldn't have killed me. But I didn't feel like it. You really have to be in the mood for that stuff. |
| Ostalo mi je samo još da nabavim proklete karte za matine, pa sam kupio novine da vidim koje se predstave daju. Pošto je bila nedelja, davale su se samo tri predstave. | I still had to get those damn theater tickets, so I bought a paper and looked up to see what shows were playing. On account of it was Sunday, there were only about three shows playing. |
| I tako, šta sam uradio - otišao sam i kupio dve karte u parteru za Znam svoju ljubav. To je bila dobrotvorna predstava ili nešto. | So what I did was, I went over and bought two orchestra seats for I Know My Love. It was a benefit performance or something. |
| Nisam bio preterano raspoložen da je gledam, ali znao sam da će Sali, kraljica folirantkinja, zabalaviti od sreće kad joj budem rekao da imam karte za to, jer su glumili Lantovi i sve. Obožavala je predstave koje su važile za vrlo ozbiljne i intelektualne, s Lantovima ili nekim. | I didn't much want to see it, but I knew old Sally, the queen of the phonies, would start drooling all over the place when I told her I had tickets for that, because the Lunts were in it and all. She liked shows that are supposed to be very sophisticated and dry and all, with the Lunts and all. |
| Za razliku od mene. Nisam ljubitelj bilo kakvih predstava, ako baš hoćete da znate. Nisu tako loše kao filmovi, ali svakako nisu nešto za čim bi se ludovalo. | I don't. I don't like any shows very much, if you want to know the truth. They're not as bad as movies, but they're certainly nothing to rave about. |
| Pre svega, mrzim glumce. Nikada se ne ponašaju kao ljudi. Oni samo misle da se tako ponašaju. Neki od boljih glumaca uspevaju u tome, vrlo slabašno, ali to nije nimalo zabavno za gledanje. | In the first place, I hate actors. They never act like people. They just think they do. Some of the good ones do, in a very slight way, but not in a way that's fun to watch. |
| A kad je neki glumac stvarno dobar, uvek se lepo vidi kako on zna da je dobar, i to sve pokvari. Uzmite, na primer, ser Lorensa Olivijea. Gledao sam ga u Hamletu. D.B. je vodio Febu i mene da ga vidimo, prošle godine. | And if any actor's really good, you can always tell he knows he's good, and that spoils it. You take Sir Laurence Olivier, for example. I saw him in Hamlet. D.B. took Phoebe and I to see it last year. |
| Prvo nas je odveo na ručak, a onda u bioskop. On je to već gledao i, po onom kako je pričao o filmu za vreme ručka, jedva sam čekao da ga i ja vidim. Ali nije mi se mnogo dopao. Jednostavno ne vidim šta je toliko čudesno u ser Lorensu Olivijeu, to je sve. | He treated us to lunch first, and then he took us. He'd already seen it, and the way he talked about it at lunch, I was anxious as hell to see it, too. But I didn't enjoy it much. I just don't see what's so marvelous about Sir Laurence Olivier, that's all. |
| On ima neviđen glas i stravično dobro izgleda i lepo je gledati ga kada hoda ili se mačuje ili nešto, ali uopšte nije bio onakav kako je D.B. opisao Hamleta. | He has a terrific voice, and he's a helluva handsome guy, and he's very nice to watch when he's walking or dueling or something, but he wasn't at all the way D.B. said Hamlet was. |
| Pre je bio kao neki prokleti general, umesto neki tužan, izmučen tip. Najbolje u celom filmu bilo je kada Ofelijin brat - onaj što na kraju vodi dvoboj sa Hamletom - odlazi na put, a otac mu deli gomilu saveta. | He was too much like a goddam general, instead of a sad, screwed-up type guy. The best part in the whole picture was when old Ophelia's brother―the one that gets in the duel with Hamlet at the very end―was going away and his father was giving him a lot of advice. |
| Dok mu otac tako deli savete, Ofelija se kao ludira sa bratom, vadi njegov bodež iz korica i zadirkuje ga, dok se on kao trudi da izgleda zainteresovan za pridike svoga oca. | While the father kept giving him a lot of advice, old Ophelia was sort of horsing around with her brother, taking his dagger out of the holster, and teasing him and all while he was trying to look interested in the bull his father was shooting. |
| To je bilo lepo. Baš mi se dopalo. Ali retko se vide takve stvari. Jedino što se Febi dopalo bilo je kada Hamlet tapše svog psa po glavi. | That was nice. I got a big bang out of that. But you don't see that kind of stuff much. The only thing old Phoebe liked was when Hamlet patted this dog on the head. |
| To joj je bilo komično i lepo, a i bilo je. Moraću da pročitam tu dramu. Problem je sa mnom što te stvari moram uvek sam da pročitam. Kad to neko glumi, jedva ga i slušam. Stalno brinem da li će već u sledećem trenutku uraditi nešto lažno i izveštačeno. | She thought that was funny and nice, and it was. What I'll have to do is, I'll have to read that play. The trouble with me is, I always have to read that stuff by myself. If an actor acts it out, I hardly listen. I keep worrying about whether he's going to do something phony every minute. |
| Kad sam kupio karte za tu predstavu s Lantovima, uzeo sam taksi do parka. Mogao sam da odem podzemnom ili nečim, jer sam malo utanjio s kintom, ali hteo sam da se što pre sklonim sa prokletog Brodveja. | After I got the tickets to the Lunts' show, I took a cab up to the park. I should've taken a subway or something, because I was getting slightly low on dough, but I wanted to get off that damn Broadway as fast as I could. |
| U parku je bilo bezvezno. Nije bilo mnogo hladno, ali sunce se još nije probilo i činilo se da u parku nema ničeg osim pasjeg izmeta, staračkih ispljuvaka i opušaka od cigara, a sve su klupe izgledale vlažne za sedenje. | It was lousy in the park. It wasn't too cold, but the sun still wasn't out, and there didn't look like there was anything in the park except dog crap and globs of spit and cigar butts from old men, and the benches all looked like they'd be wet if you sat down on them. |
| To je baš deprimiralo i, s vremena na vreme, bez ikakvog razloga, čovek bi se naježio u hodu. | It made you depressed, and every once in a while, for no reason, you got goose flesh while you walked. |
| Ni najmanje nije izgledalo da će uskoro Božić. Nije izgledalo da će bilo šta uskoro da bude. Ali svejedno sam produžio do Mala, jer Feba obično ide tamo kada je u parku. | It didn't seem at all like Christmas was coming soon. It didn't seem like anything was coming. But I kept walking over to the Mall anyway, because that's where Phoebe usually goes when she's in the park. |
| Ona voli da se rolšua kod podijuma za orkestar. Čudna stvar. To je isto mesto na kojem sam i ja voleo da se rolšuam kao dete. Međutim, kad sam stigao tamo, nisam je video nigde u blizini. | She likes to skate near the bandstand. It's funny. That's the same place I used to like to skate when I was a kid. When I got there, though, I didn't see her around anywhere. |
| Bilo je neke dece na rolšuama, a dva klinca su igrala badminton s mekanom loptom, ali Febe nije bilo. Video sam, ipak, jednu devojčicu njenih godina kako sedi sasvim sama na klupi i priteže rolšue. | There were a few kids around, skating and all, and two boys were playing Flys Up with a soft ball, but no Phoebe. I saw one kid about her age, though, sitting on a bench all by herself, tightening her skate. |
| Pomislio sam da možda poznaje Febu i da bi mogla da mi kaže gde je ili nešto, pa sam prišao, seo pored nje i pitao je: "Da ne poznaješ slučajno Febu Kolfild?" | I thought maybe she might know Phoebe and could tell me where she was or something, so I went over and sat down next to her and asked her, "Do you know Phoebe Caulfield, by any chance?" |
| "Koga?" rekla je. Na sebi je imala farmerke i jedno dvadeset džempera. Videlo se da ih njena majka plete ili nešto, jer su bili stravično grubo urađeni. | "Who?" she said. All she had on was jeans and about twenty sweaters. You could tell her mother made them for her, because they were lumpy as hell. |
| "Feba Kolfild. Stanuje na Sedamdeset prvoj ulici. Ide u četvrti razred, tamo u..." | "Phoebe Caulfield. She lives on Seventy-first Street. She's in the fourth grade, over at―" |
| "Ti znaš Febu?" | "You know Phoebe?" |
| "Aha, ja sam joj brat. Znaš li možda gde je?" | "Yeah, I'm her brother. You know where she is?" |
| "Ona je u razredu gospođice Kelon, je P da?" rekla je mala. | "She's in Miss Callon's class, isn't she?" the kid said. |
| "Ne znam. Da, mislim da jeste." | "I don't know. Yes, I think she is." |
| "Onda je verovatno u muzeju. Mi smo išli prošle subote", rekla je. | "She's prob'ly in the museum, then. We went last Saturday," the kid said. |
| "U koji to muzej?" | "Which museum?" I asked her. |
| Slegla je ramenima. "Ne znam", rekla je. "Muzej". | She shrugged her shoulders, sort of. "I don't know," she said. "The museum." |
| "Znam, ali koji - onaj sa slikama ili onaj gde su Indijanci?" | "I know, but the one where the pictures are, or the one where the Indians are?" |
| "Onaj gde su Indijanci." | "The one where the Indians." |
| "Mnogo ti hvala", rekoh. Ustao sam i pošao, ali onda sam se iznenada setio da je nedelja. "Danas je nedelja", rekao sam maloj. | "Thanks a lot," I said. I got up and started to go, but then I suddenly remembered it was Sunday. "This is Sunday," I told the kid. |
| Pogledala je naviše u mene. "Oh. Onda nije tamo." | She looked up at me. "Oh. Then she isn't." |
| Muku je mučila da pritegne rolšue. Nije imala rukavice i ruke su joj bile skroz crvene i hladne. Pomogao sam joj malo. Ljudi moji, godinama nisam držao ključ od rolšua u ruci. | She was having a helluva time tightening her skate. She didn't have any gloves on or anything and her hands were all red and cold. I gave her a hand with it. Boy, I hadn't had a skate key in my hand for years. |
| Nije mi, ipak, bilo ništa neobično. Možete da mi date ključ od rolšua i za pedeset godina, u mrklom mraku, i opet ću znati šta je. Zahvalila mi je i sve kad sam joj pritegao rolšue. Bila je veoma dobra, učtiva devojčica. | It didn't feel funny, though. You could put a skate key in my hand fifty years from now, in pitch dark, and I'd still know what it is. She thanked me and all when I had it tightened for her. She was a very nice, polite little kid. |
| Isuse, volim kad je neko dete tako dobro i učtivo kad mu pritegneš rolšue ili nešto. Deca su uglavnom takva. Najozbiljnije. Pitao sam je nije li možda raspoložena da popije sa mnom vruću čokoladu ili nešto, ali rekla je ne, hvala. Rekla je kako mora da se nađe sa drugaricom. Devojčice uvek moraju da se nađu s nekom drugaricom. To me obara. | God, I love it when a kid's nice and polite when you tighten their skate for them or something. Most kids are. They really are. I asked her if she'd care to have a hot chocolate or something with me, but she said no, thank you. She said she had to meet her friend. Kids always have to meet their friend. That kills me. |
| Iako je bila nedelja, pa Feba nije bila tamo sa svojim razredom, i mada je bilo tako vlažno i odvratno napolju, prošao sam pešice kroz čitav park, sve do Prirodnjačkog muzeja. Znao sam da je to muzej na koji je mislila ona mala s ključem od rolšua. Znao sam ceo taj muzej kao sopstveni džep. | Even though it was Sunday and Phoebe wouldn't be there with her class or anything, and even though it was so damp and lousy out, I walked all the way through the park over to the Museum of Natural History. I knew that was the museum the kid with the skate key meant. I knew that whole museum routine like a book. |
| Feba je išla u istu školu u koju sam ja išao kao dete, i stalno smo visili tamo. Imali smo tu učiteljicu, gđicu Ejgltinger, koja nas je vodila gotovo svake božje subote. Ponekad smo gledali životinje, a ponekad one stvari koje su pravili Indijanci, u stara vremena. | Phoebe went to the same school I went to when I was a kid, and we used to go there all the time. We had this teacher, Miss Aigletinger, that took us there damn near every Saturday. Sometimes we looked at the animals and sometimes we looked at the stuff the Indians had made in ancient times. |
| Lonce i korpe od pruća i druge stvari u tom stilu. Uvek me obuzme neka sreća kad se toga setim. Čak i sad. Sećam se da smo, kad odgledamo sve te indijanske stvari, obično išli da gledamo neki film u onoj velikoj sali. | Pottery and straw baskets and all stuff like that. I get very happy when I think about it. Even now. I remember after we looked at all the Indian stuff, usually we went to see some movie in this big auditorium. |
| Kolumba. Uvek su prikazivali kako Kolumbo otkriva Ameriku, grdno se mučeći da nagovori starog Ferdinanda i Izabelu da mu pozajme novac s kojim bi kupio brodove, i kako onda mornari dižu protiv njega pobunu i sve. | Columbus. They were always showing Columbus discovering America, having one helluva time getting old Ferdinand and Isabella to lend him the dough to buy ships with, and then the sailors mutinying on him and all. |
| Nikome nije bilo preterano stalo do starog Kolumba, ali uvek si imao dosta bombona i žvaka i svačega, a u toj sali je tako lepo mirisalo. | Nobody gave too much of a damn about old Columbus, but you always had a lot of candy and gum and stuff with you, and the inside of that auditorium had such a nice smell. |
| Uvek je mirisalo kao da napolju pada kiša, čak i kad nije padala, i bio si u jedinom lepom, suvom i toplom mestu na čitavom svetu. Voleo sam taj prokleti muzej. Sećam se da je moralo da se prođe kroz Indijansku odaju kako bi se stiglo do te sale. | It always smelled like it was raining outside, even if it wasn't, and you were in the only nice, dry, cosy place in the world. I loved that damn museum. I remember you had to go through the Indian Room to get to the auditorium. |
| Bila je to duga, veoma duga prostorija i trebalo je samo da se šapuće kad se prolazi kroz nju. Učiteljica je išla prva, a za njom je išao razred. Išlo se po dvoje, i svakoje imao svog para. | It was a long, long room, and you were only supposed to whisper. The teacher would go first, then the class. You'd be two rows of kids, and you'd have a partner. |
| Moj par je najčešće bila jedna devojčica koja se zvala Gertruda Levin. Uvek je htela da se držimo za ruke, a ruka joj je večito bila lepljiva ili znojava ili nešto. | Most of the time my partner was this girl named Gertrude Levine. She always wanted to hold your hand, and her hand was always sticky or sweaty or something. |
| Pod je bio od mermera i, ako bi imao neke klikere u ruci i ispustio ih, odskakali bi kao ludi po čitavom podu i napravili stravičnu buku, pa bi učiteljica zaustavljala razred i vraćala se da vidi šta se, kog đavola, dešava. Ali nikad se nije ljutila, ta gđica Ejgltinger. | The floor was all stone, and if you had some marbles in your hand and you dropped them, they bounced like madmen all over the floor and made a helluva racket, and the teacher would hold up the class and go back and see what the hell was going on. She never got sore, though, Miss Aigletinger. |
| Onda se prolazilo pored onog dugačkog, dugačkog indijanskog ratničkog kanua, dugačkog kao tri prokleta 'kadilaka', s jedno dvadeset Indijanaca u njemu. Neki od njih su veslali, a neki samo stajali, surovog izgleda, i svima su lica bila išarana ratničkim bojama. U zadnjem delu kanua bio je neki sablastan tip, s maskom na licu. To je bio vrač. | Then you'd pass by this long, long Indian war canoe, about as long as three goddam Cadillacs in a row, with about twenty Indians in it, some of them paddling, some of them just standing around looking tough, and they all had war paint all over their faces. There was one very spooky guy in the back of the canoe, with a mask on. He was the witch doctor. |
| Uvek me hvatala jeza od njega, ali svejedno sam ga voleo. Ako biste u prolazu dodirnuli neko veslo ili nešto, neki od čuvara bi vam rekao: "Nemojte ništa da dirate, deco", ali uvek bi to rekao ljubaznim glasom, ne kao prokleti pandur ili neko. | He gave me the creeps, but I liked him anyway. Another thing, if you touched one of the paddles or anything while you were passing, one of the guards would say to you, "Don't touch anything, children," but he always said it in a nice voice, not like a goddam cop or anything. |
| Zatim se prolazilo pored one velike staklene vitrine u kojoj Indijanci trljaju drvo o drvo da naprave vatru, dok jedna Indijanka veze neki pokrivač. | Then you'd pass by this big glass case, with Indians inside it rubbing sticks together to make a fire, and a squaw weaving a blanket. |
| Indijanka koja veze taj pokrivač bila je kao pognuta nad njim i mogle su da joj se vide grudi. Svi smo je uvek krišom zagledali, čak i devojčice, jer su bile još samo deca i nisu imale ništa veće grudi od nas dečaka. A onda, pred samim ulazom u veliku salu, prolazilo se pored onog Eskima. | The squaw that was weaving the blanket was sort of bending over, and you could see her bosom and all. We all used to sneak a good look at it, even the girls, because they were only little kids and they didn't have any more bosom than we did. Then, just before you went inside the auditorium, right near the doors, you passed this Eskimo. |
| Sedeo je nad rupom u tom zaleđenom jezeru i pecao kroz nju. Pored same rupe ležale su neke dve ribe koje je već ulovio. Ljudi moji, taj muzej je bio pun staklenih vitrina. Bilo ih je čak i više, gore na spratu, s jelenima koji unutra piju vodu iz barica i pticama koje lete na jug da prezime. | He was sitting over a hole in this icy lake, and he was fishing through it. He had about two fish right next to the hole, that he'd already caught. Boy, that museum was full of glass cases. There were even more upstairs, with deer inside them drinking at water holes, and birds flying south for the winter. |
| One najbliže ptice bile su punjene i okačene na žicama, a one pozadi samo naslikane na zidu, ali sve su izgledale kao da stvarno lete na jug i, ako biste sagli glavu i pogledali ih naopačke, izgledale su kao da još više žure da odlete na jug. Najbolje u tom muzeju bilo je, ipak, što je sve uvek ostajalo na istom mestu. Ništa se nije kretalo. | The birds nearest you were all stuffed and hung up on wires, and the ones in back were just painted on the wall, but they all looked like they were really flying south, and if you bent your head down and sort of looked at them upside down, they looked in an even bigger hurry to fly south. The best thing, though, in that museum was that everything always stayed right where it was. Nobody'd move. |
| Mogao si da odeš sto hiljada puta tamo, a onaj Eskim bi i dalje tek upecao one dve ribe, ptice bi i dalje letele ka jugu, jeleni bi i dalje pili vodu iz onih barica, lepih rogova i lepih tankih nogu, a ona Indijanka golih grudi i dalje bi vezla isti pokrivač. Ništa se ne bi promenilo. | You could go there a hundred thousand times, and that Eskimo would still be just finished catching those two fish, the birds would still be on their way south, the deers would still be drinking out of that water hole, with their pretty antlers and their pretty, skinny legs, and that squaw with the naked bosom would still be weaving that same blanket. Nobody'd be different. |
| Jedino što bi se promenilo bili ste vi. Nije da biste bili mnogo stariji ili nešto. Nije baš to, u suštini. Jednostavno biste bili drukčiji, to je sve. | The only thing that would be different would be you. Not that you'd be so much older or anything. It wouldn't be that, exactly. You'd just be different, that's all. |
| Bili biste, recimo, u kaputu. Ili bi devojčica koja vam je poslednji put bila par dobila šarlah, pa biste imali novog para. Ili bi razred vodila neka zamena umesto gđice Ejgltinger. Ili biste prethodno čuli kako se otac i majka užasno svađaju u kupatilu. | You'd have an overcoat on this time. Or the kid that was your partner in line the last time had got scarlet fever and you'd have a new partner. Or you'd have a substitute taking the class, instead of Miss Aigletinger. Or you'd heard your mother and father having a terrific fight in the bathroom. |
| Ili biste samo prošli pored jedne od onih lokvi na ulici, po kojima se šire benzinske duge. Mislim, bili biste na neki način drukčiji - ne umem da objasnim na šta mislim. A čak i kad bih umeo, nisam siguran da bih bio raspoložen za to. | Or you'd just passed by one of those puddles in the street with gasoline rainbows in them. I mean you'd be different in some way―I can't explain what I mean. And even if I could, I'm not sure I'd feel like it. |
| Dok sam tako išao, izvadio sam onu staru lovačku kapu iz džepa i stavio je na glavu. Znao sam da neću sresti nikoga ko me poznaje, a bilo je i prilično vlažno napolju. | I took my old hunting hat out of my pocket while I walked, and put it on. I knew I wouldn't meet anybody that knew me, and it was pretty damp out. |
| Samo sam hodao i hodao i stalno mislio kako Feba ide u taj muzej subotom, kao i ja nekad. Mislio sam kako ona gleda iste one stvari koje sam i ja gledao, i kako će ona biti drukčija svaki put kad ih ponovo vidi. | I kept walking and walking, and I kept thinking about old Phoebe going to that museum on Saturdays the way I used to. I thought how she'd see the same stuff I used to see, and how she'd be different every time she saw it. |
| Nije da me deprimiralo dok sam mislio o tome, ali nisam baš skakao od radosti. Neke stvari treba da ostanu takve kakve jesu. | It didn't exactly depress me to think about it, but it didn't make me feel gay as hell, either. Certain things they should stay the way they are. |
| Lepo bi bilo kad biste mogli da ih strpate u jednu od tih velikih staklenih vitrina i jednostavno ih ostavite tamo. Znam da je to nemoguće, ali je svejedno šteta. Sve u svemu, to je ono o čemu sam razmišljao dok sam tako išao. | You ought to be able to stick them in one of those big glass cases and just leave them alone. I know that's impossible, but it's too bad anyway. Anyway, I kept thinking about all that while I walked. |
| Prolazio sam pored jednog vrtića i zastao, posmatrajući dvoje vrlo male dece na klackalici. Jedno od njih bilo je onako debeljuškasto, pa sam stavio ruku na kraj gde je sedelo ono drugo dete, da kao napravim ravnotežu, ali lepo se videlo da im smetam, pa sam ih ostavio na miru. | I passed by this playground and stopped and watched a couple of very tiny kids on a seesaw. One of them was sort of fat, and I put my hand on the skinny kid's end, to sort of even up the weight, but you could tell they didn't want me around, so I let them alone. |
| Onda se nešto čudno desilo. Kad sam došao do muzeja, najednom mi se nije ulazilo u njega, ni za milion dolara. Jednostavno me ništa nije vuklo unutra - a prepešačio sam čitav prokleti park, jedva čekajući da stignem tamo i sve. Da je Feba bila unutra, verovatno bih ušao, ali nije. | Then a funny thing happened. When I got to the museum, all of a sudden I wouldn't have gone inside for a million bucks. It just didn't appeal to me―and here I'd walked through the whole goddam park and looked forward to it and all. If Phoebe'd been there, I probably would have, but she wasn't. |
| I tako, samo sam uzeo taksi ispred muzeja i odvezao se do Biltmora. Uopšte mi se nije išlo. Ali imao sam taj prokleti sudar sa Sali. | So all I did, in front of the museum, was get a cab and go down to the Biltmore. I didn't feel much like going. I'd made that damn date with Sally, though. |